Recently I’ve been feeling depressed…
My wife and I went on a Caribbean Cruise together. My son was baptized and it was a believer baptism meaning that he chose to be baptized and pursued it with the Pastor himself. Two medical concerns for family members received miraculous answers to prayer.
It’s not the first time that I’ve had a series of very positive and good things happen in my life only to have them followed up with a period of depression. I’ve written about such things before. It feels like spiritual warfare. This winter has been tough. Several people in my family have had medical concerns. My parents are aging and concerns are popping up there. My son and I both had Covid and the flu in a three week period. The flu was the worst and really kicked my butt. The cruise, baptism, and answered prayers felt like a temporary reprieve from these problems. It’s easy to get a negative point of view and feel like you don’t matter to anyone.
Probably unsurprisingly I have to confess I have been very lax in my prayer and bible study life. Lax as in it’s almost non-existent. Previously if I didn’t say the Lord’s Prayer, at a minimum, I would not be able to fall asleep. Now, it honestly feels like I haven’t prayed other than a sporadic prayer here or there for the past few months.
I look at these pictures of my wife from the day of the cruise where we swam with dolphins and just hope that I make her as happy as she was when these photos were taken.
In conclusion, Nate’s reaction to the conversation in today’s comic I feel is pretty deserving. I would feel the same way if I had the same conversation he had with a friend.
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